Thursday, September 30, 2010

My beloved people, My Idols

In my daily activities I often get in touch with the others and from these relations I meet some people whose interests, characteristics and behaviors are similar to me and I choose them as my friends, my beloved people and my idols. And here are they:

He is a very close friend of mine for long time ago. The deeper our mutual understanding becomes the more we feel closely attached to each other. Vanara is the one who always by my side in any circumstances, in any times. He cheers me up, he pushes me on, he comforts me with his warmth speech and the food of thought, he tells me that I'm worth to be here, to be his friend, and for others.
Everything he did just to tell his friend that, he is not only a friend, he is somebody else who has more value that anyone else can be the same. He is the unique friend among others.
It's not admiring or flattering, it is the true feeling of mine toward my bestfriend like him. With him, I learnt how to be friend, how to be a son and how to be student. It's the true feeling of bestfriend that any other relations could ever compare.
I sometimes really admire everything he has done to me or people around him, He can do a thing, a simple thing but meaningless and can never forget.

I like him very much because of his honesty and straight forwardness. He is always ready to help his weak friends in their study, as a result, lots of friends, thanks to his whole-hearted help, have become good ones.
He is careless, so what?
He is sensitive, so what?
He is fickle, so what?
It's all just an illusion, it's not true. Something lying behind this. And I may know what it is.
He is such an amazing people, awesome friend, strong minded guys, and a smart student. In my relation with him, I have got precious experience: thirst for learning, patience to overcome difficulties, helpfulness and filial piety.

Somehow, I feel like I'm not the one for him, I'm not the one that he counts on. I don't like when I was aside when he got problem, I don't like when he sometimes so cruel to me, when he tries to be too much exaggerate, outrageous, or abhorrent......
Anyhow, To me, he is my AFBF.
My Admirable Bestfriend
My Foremost Bestfriend
My Benevolence Bestfriend
My Fascination Bestfriend.

Just like Vanara, he is the one that I admire the most. We've been good friend since we first started to be friend. He got the very same characteristic as I do, he is so playful sometimes but he is so serious just when he committed to be. He is smart, clever and flexible. He could feel and sense any hard things or obstacles infront of him and he is good at finding the way to solve those problems.

Most of the time, we played with each others just like kid, but compare to him, I'm so far difference. Whatever, it's not counted for a bestfriend like us.
He is sometimes feels the same way as I did, he like something that I like too. He has a good heart. He is truthful, honest and obedient. He is good at every subjects, but he never shows pride in his abilities and always tries to learn harder.
He makes his parents and friends very proud of him in examinations. He secures good marks and is usually top of his class in examinations. He inspires me to work harder. He keeps away from bad company.

I don't know why, I sometimes, hate him so much, hate to see even his face!!!
But to me he is my BCBF
My Beyond Compare Bestfriend
My Classy Bestfriend
My Breast Bestfriend
My Fortitude Bestfriend

They both are the most value people among others beside my beloved family. They both are everything to me and to my life....

(To be continued...)



Tuesday, September 28, 2010

An awful liar


I cant't sleep tonight, I don't know why. I've just found myself login into my old blog and everything that I've been in love before. It seems to me that these few months, I've faced with many many things or I can say that the very hard time ever in my life. And because of these few months, I've learn to be me, I've learn to be Piseth, who everyone around him wish him to be. I've learn many good and priceless lessons and I will never forget it.
It was hard time for me to face with many obstacles and nightmares. I've been afraid even to close my eyes and sleep. I've afraid to see people around me. I've afraid to tell my beloved people that I'm fine. I've been afraid to be me.
I afraid to sleep and I afraid that I will never have chance to open my eyes again. I had a nightmare eveytime I sleep of losing you guys. I was afraid to leave. And these few month, I was about to disappear already.
Last week, I can say that it was a very hard time for me ever to confront, to live my life on. I was suddenly cried when I can survived, when I managed myself to get up again. It's was an incomparably happy, and the first impression of mine at that time is my friends. I was so happy cause I can be back to see them again.
BUT, everything turn wrong, completely wrong from what I thought. I supposed to give them a big smile, to tell them that, "My Friends, I miss you, I want to hug you". It's not like I wanted at all.
They convey my hardship into a lie, an awful lie, a beautiful lie. They turn my big commitment into a shit, they turn my challenge into a weak one. They turn me in to an EVIL.
Why? I wonder why? Are you my friends? Are you my Best friend?
Can you just take a second to think a bit about it? Can you?
Do you ever know? I would rather die, than to be a liar....T.T
And I would rather die to make my bestfriends cry because of me. Everything you've given me so far, were like a sharp sword!!!
IT's REALLY HURT ME SO BAD my friend, I've never imagined about that. I would confront with any very hardships on earth but I really cant to see you walking away from me and tell me that I'm a liar, a sweet liar, an EVIL T.T
What's for? Why I have to do so? Why I have to do that to all my beloved people?
You hurt me, And it was so deep hurt...
I don't want to explain, I don't want to fight, I don want to say anything just to tell you that I was right. I don't need to do so. You can judge me, or see me as much as you like. Please see me as a liar, cuz I was already a liar.
So far, I'm so thankful for everything you did for me. Even now, you may regret to do all those things, but I would say that those are the straight for me hold on.
Thanks to be with me, Thanks for giving me hope, Thanks to be sweet and kind to a liar as me.
I'm sorry to hurt you that much, I'm sorry to be your bad friend, I'm sorry to be the one that always give you troubles.


"My AFBF, My BCBF, My MBBF, Cheata, KUNNA, you all are always my hero, my idols"
I love you, I can leave everything, I can lost everything, I can give up anything but not you guys. Please promise me that, you always are, please promise to be the one for me, please promise to give me a way to walk together in the future, please tell the world that I'm your good friend. CUZ WITHOUT YOU GUYS, MY WORLD IS SO EMPTY.
Please always with me when I open my eyes to the world T.T
Thanks,
Piseth CHANTY
I would be a loser for you guys...