Yeah, we've been known each others pretty long ago. We've been done alots of things, alots of great time together, it all was a big dot that will curve in our heart everlast. But,......that feeling was just come few months ago. I love you and it's no more words to explain about that feeling, just I've started to love you since that day.If I am not wrong, it was the day that you tried to help me out throught the rain and leaded me home with your very pure heart that anything cant be the same. It was a very proud of me seeing you beside me in such that poorly moment. You know? on that day, I learned well about you, found that you are my only one and noone can replace. and I've promised myself that I will try to be kind with you, do everything for you, no matter what u did to me, u still be my one and my only one.
These few months with you in my heart, it was really a great time of mine. And I will never forget it. I started looking at you in difference way, in the way of love. Your face, your smile, your eyes were always in my brain everyday and in the night before I'm going to sleep. I never imagined before that you became like this in my heart, How can? But, yeah you already took that place. I put you in that place without any permission from you. And I've tried many time just to tell you that I love you. I show it to you throught my eyes, my activities.......but you still didnt got it.
Loving someone and you can confess your true feeling with them, it was really really hard. I faced it, it very hard to think about you everyday and night.
Since one day after that few months, I cannot lie myself anymore, I cant do it alone. But I was really afraid to tell you that I love you.
It was a night after I finished all my very difficult tasks at school.......after you say goodnight throught SMS, I then tried to reply you with the meaning of Love " You pretend or you really don't know that I love you?", Yeah that phrase, I asked. Too fast, I got your reply back.....(My someone had that feeling for me too!!!). It was such a great word and I was really happy at that time.
You said " I've been waiting this word for so long, why it just happend and I can't prepared for everything ??". We've been talking throght the texte alots that night. Then, I started to keep you as my real love.
I love you babe, I love you sweetie, I love you my.....is all I used with you throught texte since that night. I was happy, yeah I was so so happy and it was a great moment seeing ur reply back.
But it seeems like everything was just a fake, you was just kidding with me since that night. You don't told me you were lying but I found it! yeah I found that I am not like that in your heart. I found it out throught everything. Yeah I am not, I am not really your one. Since then, I tried to be patient and let everything gone and I still do the same as before, love you, care about you and do everything for you.
Why I'm so happy just to read all your SMS that u sent me? Why? Why I kept to read it every night, the same and the same. I don't bore with it? Yeah, truly, I've never bored with all your worlds, all your sentences, I keep it and I remember all of it. poor me. :(
But, sure I cant stand with it, I cant stand to love someone that they just keep me as a simple one. I want the care and the love from you, from your truly heart. I love you and I want your love back. I can't face with it anymore, so just let you go.
From now, I'm promise, I will not let that feeling comes over me again and I will let you go. It hurts, yeah it hurts me but, it is the only way. I don't wanna feel that lonesome love. Maybe I'm not good enought for you, maybe my condition is not fit with yours or maybe you don't love me back.
One day without me, you will be happy and free.
One day without me, you will still be the same.
One day without me, you will not stay with pressure anymore.
One night without me, you can sleep well without the tone of my SMS.
And one night without me, you can enjoy everything you want not just to reply my SMS.
I knew, it hard for you to love someone that you don't really love. and I knew it is not your fault, It's mine. I'm the one who made it, the one who caused it, so I'm gonna take everything from it as my responsibility.
I just want to appology, I do appology for everything I've made with you. I shouldn't have told you that I love you. I'm fool, I'm that fool cause I love you, I really don't know, why I really deep like this??? I never have such that feeling before, it is the truth.
OK, Now even I still miss you, wanna sms to you but I'm giving it up now. It will be better day by day.
Yeah, love someone is not a fault and it is no condition. Love just love
Thanks for your Smile (",) and Kiss too :* and I will keep it.
Wish you to find someone that you really love na. And keep ur smilling baby.
SETH, :D
