Wednesday, June 17, 2009

One day without me....

Yeah, we've been known each others pretty long ago. We've been done alots of things, alots of great time together, it all was a big dot that will curve in our heart everlast. But,......that feeling was just come few months ago. I love you and it's no more words to explain about that feeling, just I've started to love you since that day.

If I am not wrong, it was the day that you tried to help me out throught the rain and leaded me home with your very pure heart that anything cant be the same. It was a very proud of me seeing you beside me in such that poorly moment. You know? on that day, I learned well about you, found that you are my only one and noone can replace. and I've promised myself that I will try to be kind with you, do everything for you, no matter what u did to me, u still be my one and my only one.

These few months with you in my heart, it was really a great time of mine. And I will never forget it. I started looking at you in difference way, in the way of love. Your face, your smile, your eyes were always in my brain everyday and in the night before I'm going to sleep. I never imagined before that you became like this in my heart, How can? But, yeah you already took that place. I put you in that place without any permission from you. And I've tried many time just to tell you that I love you. I show it to you throught my eyes, my activities.......but you still didnt got it.

Loving someone and you can confess your true feeling with them, it was really really hard. I faced it, it very hard to think about you everyday and night.

Since one day after that few months, I cannot lie myself anymore, I cant do it alone. But I was really afraid to tell you that I love you.
It was a night after I finished all my very difficult tasks at school.......after you say goodnight throught SMS, I then tried to reply you with the meaning of Love " You pretend or you really don't know that I love you?", Yeah that phrase, I asked. Too fast, I got your reply back.....(My someone had that feeling for me too!!!). It was such a great word and I was really happy at that time.
You said " I've been waiting this word for so long, why it just happend and I can't prepared for everything ??". We've been talking throght the texte alots that night. Then, I started to keep you as my real love.

I love you babe, I love you sweetie, I love you my.....is all I used with you throught texte since that night. I was happy, yeah I was so so happy and it was a great moment seeing ur reply back.

But it seeems like everything was just a fake, you was just kidding with me since that night. You don't told me you were lying but I found it! yeah I found that I am not like that in your heart. I found it out throught everything. Yeah I am not, I am not really your one. Since then, I tried to be patient and let everything gone and I still do the same as before, love you, care about you and do everything for you.
Why I'm so happy just to read all your SMS that u sent me? Why? Why I kept to read it every night, the same and the same. I don't bore with it? Yeah, truly, I've never bored with all your worlds, all your sentences, I keep it and I remember all of it. poor me. :(
But, sure I cant stand with it, I cant stand to love someone that they just keep me as a simple one. I want the care and the love from you, from your truly heart. I love you and I want your love back. I can't face with it anymore, so just let you go.

From now, I'm promise, I will not let that feeling comes over me again and I will let you go. It hurts, yeah it hurts me but, it is the only way. I don't wanna feel that lonesome love. Maybe I'm not good enought for you, maybe my condition is not fit with yours or maybe you don't love me back.

One day without me, you will be happy and free.
One day without me, you will still be the same.
One day without me, you will not stay with pressure anymore.
One night without me, you can sleep well without the tone of my SMS.
And one night without me, you can enjoy everything you want not just to reply my SMS.
I knew, it hard for you to love someone that you don't really love. and I knew it is not your fault, It's mine. I'm the one who made it, the one who caused it, so I'm gonna take everything from it as my responsibility.

I just want to appology, I do appology for everything I've made with you. I shouldn't have told you that I love you. I'm fool, I'm that fool cause I love you, I really don't know, why I really deep like this??? I never have such that feeling before, it is the truth.
OK, Now even I still miss you, wanna sms to you but I'm giving it up now. It will be better day by day.
Yeah, love someone is not a fault and it is no condition. Love just love

Thanks for your Smile (",) and Kiss too :* and I will keep it.
Wish you to find someone that you really love na. And keep ur smilling baby.
SETH, :D

14 comments:

Sokunna said...

ooh my goodness... it sounds hurt.. I feel so sorry for you Seth.. Hm, i think maybe you just don't make it clear enough to that girl na. Hmm.. If you really love her, go to her before s.o else take her away. Then after that you will be regret forever..

PisethSKY said...

Thanks for taking time to read it Kunna, I will nt regret. Sometime, if we really knw in the first already that it is no result, so will u still continue?
:D Thx for ur idea pouk mak!

Peter Pan said...

Hi, i just read your story. I think trying and trying harder to make her love you back would show that you try your best and would make you not regret later on. It's so good of what suggested your friend, Sokunna. But giving is also not bad. It's just the way of you loving her. So cheer up. There will be One Day and that One Day will come.

PisethSKY said...

Yeah, thx u Peter Pan, that is wat we called love. I should have known that it will be such that hurt, but I still wanna try it. And here is the result. :D

raksa said...

she treated u like a cute toy, like a second choices ,but u treated her like a princes, like a lucky star that god gave you...
but u8 know wat she was just ur painful ,
she was suck
m dead ass to says that....
dun care about her from now on....
she is not ur miracle ...
she was ********
U know wat she used to be ur hater but then u felt crushed on her....
u hought that was awesome that she placed in ur heart....
hell no.....
she just had the best techniques to grabbed ur heart, ur attention, and made u jealousy .....
that's it...
In this serious moment i have to avoiding u from this stuffs..:
No drug
no drink
no cry
no sad
do not cut class
do not give up ur friend like me
and do not let ur self beehind her wit the sadness...
understand me huh???
okay bye ...

PisethSKY said...

Thanks u so much for such that wonderful idea. Thx for your care!
I'm appreciated will all of them.

Peter Pan said...

Hello again.
I dont really agree bad-mouthing the girl the one you love.
There's neither right nor wrong.
It just happened that way.
That's a very beautiful part of love.
You just dont know when it happened really. And what you know is "It just happened".
Thus, instead of bad-mouthing the girl you love and despite of the pain you got, just keep only beautiful memories about her for the sake that once you used to love her. :)

By the way, i know you because you are my junior in PMG1 last year.
You just dont know me.
Anyway, nice to know you here.

PisethSKY said...

U were confuse man, it is not a bad-mouthing as u thought. It just their idea. And I'm also not that kind of guy that talk sth bad abt them when we cant get them. It's just not my type.
Hey? We were classmate? Mind to tell me ur name man?

Unknown said...

I’ve just finished reading your sad love story. That’s really hurt. I feel very sorry for that, Seth! You must be strong dear. You yourself understand one thing, you should do. And I’m sure you have confident to do it. I want you to smile with the problems and solve them. I want to accompany you during sad and happy time. And you feel never be alone. I can see how difficult you are when facing situation like that. Anyway, you know exactly you want. And you know what exactly your true happiness is. You have to let someone know that you have positive confident on what you have done and what you are doing right now and in the future. You need to have your own tool for your own good. Remember, someone never intent to hurt you dear. People need love and to avoid misunderstanding, people need to seek the true meaning of love. Love can show the mistake of another one more and more everyday, and they will bore their love. That’s why they said “Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus”? Seth, I still hope that you would be fine. And remember everything is going to be fine, when you get her to know your feeling. Tell her the trust.

Miss and Care,

Nick

PisethSKY said...

Many thzz nick......I will be fine. Now I found that I'm worth enought for u guy to care abt me. I will surely fine soon......:D

Sokunna said...

Peter pan, u're such a gentle man! Yeah u're right. We should fine a way to solve this problem without hurting anyone, the one best way for everyone. It's not anyone's fault so We cannot just judge this person is bad or this and that at all.
Seth, i know you can do it right. Forget everything if it helps. Memories are nth in this moment. Way to GO! Good luck na! We all support U..

Peter Pan said...

Hello for the 3rd time.
I'm your senior PMG2 when you were still PMG1. I'm now in Lyon.
But i guess you dont know me even i tell you the name.
There are only 4 guys coming to study in France. I'm one of them, so guess. But Kunna knows me.
Anyway, just smile and be happy Seth :)

PisethSKY said...

Oh.....so u must be bong Channarith rite? hehehe......Nice to see u here. Thx for ur idea too bro!

Peter Pan said...

Bingo!
Great guess.
But how could you know it was me?